I really haven’t been writing much here over the past 6 months or so for many different reasons. I guess the biggest factor is that I rarely have the time to sit down and write about what’s going on in my world, and the world around me.
I don’t feel the need to write as I once used to. The feeling that I wanted to write something every day has long since left and I doubt it’ll ever come back with the same ferocity it once had.
And really, what’s there to write about?
Starting from the top let me go into a bit more detail. Since being placed in charged of my own school, a lot of my focus and energy is squarely aimed at it. It’s not easy having to manage 10 teachers, as well as keeping an eye on the sales and administration team. This whole ‘management’ thing isn’t as easy as I thought it would be and it’s taking longer to work through certain things than I anticipated.
It also doesn’t help when I’m short staffed, spending a little too much of my time in the classroom rather than the office, getting through the piles of administrative work that awaits me. I can’t tell you how much time it requires to prepare, conduct, and process tasks such as teacher observations, appraisals, schedules, parent communications… the list goes on and on.
And they’re just my weekly tasks; you can dump my list of personal work projects on top of all that.
For the most part I’m working a 9:30 – 8:00 day, solid. It sounds a lot, but the days seem to always go too quickly for me. When I have my two days off (which usually requires some work during them) I really enjoy spending that time with Em or doing absolutely nothing. There’s no shame in the later.
As mentioned above, the itch to write has certainly diminished over time. In many ways it goes hand-in-hand with having little time for anything away from work so Em and I rarely travel these days due to both our work commitments. Time together at home is precious and there’s nothing else we’d rather do together.
I never feel the urge to write anything on the blog, unless it’s for my family, and even then it’s a bit of a stretch using the blog when a phone call is so much easier.
Finally, there isn’t a great deal to write about these days. I’m set in my ways and life, dare I say it, is starting to quiet down a little. People don’t want to see a post about my adventure walking to work, or the latest episode of China Supermarket Travels. It’s really just not that interesting.
The big new, of course, is that I am soon to be married. October this year to be exact. Just a small ceremony for family and friends here in Beijing.
It begins a whole new chapter of my life, which in turns closes another chapter. I tend to think that this blog falls somewhere in the previous chapter category and would best be left behind. I’m not sentimental about closing off my blog, but it’s coming up to that expiry date where it doesn’t give me what I want any more.
For the past 15 years (at least) this blog has connected me with some amazing people and allowed me to share myself to a bigger audience than I thought possible (believe it or not, I used to get close to 500 people a day visiting here!). Not that I ever thought more than family and friends would read it, but I was flattered that so many other people thought it was worth the read in the first place.
That’s long enough, I think, so it’s time to think about moving on.
In fact my last post I plan to be the day before my wedding. I couldn’t think of a better time to wrap the whole show up then on the verge of one of, if not the biggest, moments in my life so far. Besides, I have to admit, Em is an excellent sounding board for all my thoughts and opinions and, unlike my blog, will always give me some response (sure, ‘That’s nice sweetie’ is still a response).
From now until the wedding I’ll try post some interesting things about what I’m doing, but it wouldn’t be the same volume as before (look above for all the reasons why not).
It’ll also be nice to reconnect with some older blogs I used to connect with all the time, but more about that at a later stage.
So there you have it. In a way it’s sad to end something that’s been so significant in my life, but it’s even more special knowing that I no longer require it to be there.
6 months and counting.